Awareness through the Body: Understanding & Listening to the Body

How my illness transformed my life.

One fine day I was found to have Tuberculosis. My ground slipped away. It was a big blow as I was only 35, ate only organic and unrefined food, had already completed my counselor's course in SPF. Everything according to me was perfect. 

It took almost a week for me to accept the illness and  was willing to take charge. First I understood that my body is asking me to slowdown. Once I decided to slow down, it sank in me physically and mentally. I let go off many things.

One month went off without major incidents except for sudden depression or occasional self pity. One fine day my fatigue led to self pity and this led to a fight. I was asked to leave the house in the middle of the night. when I stood outside my locked door something suddenly changed. I saw myself in square one. How much ever I tried to change, a  small part of me is refusing to change. I know only a troubled life. I am so used to that life.

 I told myself that everything is going to be fine only when I wanted to change my current life. Immediately I dropped all my past memories. I was born new. I went to the terrace and started admiring the stars. In 5 minutes, my husband came looking for me. He looked agitated and tensed armed with his cellphone and car keys. He was equipped to handle emergency situation. But I was totally calm. My calmness conquered him too.

Its more than a month from that incident. My current life is the opposite of my old life...

With respect to my Husband (same husband), He now address me with all cute words, we have very small conversations but communicate a lot, he now also shares his dreams with me.

With respect to my children (11yr old girl and 8yr old boy), they have become more responsible and independent. One day when I was too tired they both made dinner for me. They fight less among themselves.

2 months back, I never thought my life will transform for good. I can only thank Tuberculosis.

Awareness Through The Body : The Power Of Freedom

In the health domain, this month we focus on the aspect of Freedom and its impact on the body. Experiencing Freedom with emotions leads to the feeling of being Light and Vast. If you have ever fallen in Love with someone, you would know what I mean?

However, in relationships whether office, home or intimate,  when our perception of who we are is because others define it & make it, how will we ever experience Freedom? It is definitely not possible for any relationship to cater 100% attention to the Other because we think and are from who we are. Very often partners, parents feel neglected because either their Freedom is given away to someone else, or they are holding too tightly in a relationship. In either case, physical body will show up Pain.

Pain initially is like a pull or a stretch, when unnoticed becomes throbbing as the tension spreads to surrounding areas. This causes Inflammation. The physical appearance is softer that is caused due to retention of fluid. When we are more unaware, this hardens over years, then becoming harder parts hiding in some parts of our body that are accumulation of toxic elements. When we are unable to release the Freedom, the hardening increases.
Bottom line being, pain is an indicator of Uneasiness in the environment around us that is getting translated to the Body. 

Ask Yourself: Are you holding any person or relationship too tightly or are being held tightly?. How is the power of your Freedom restricted?
Are you willing to let go this perception in the Relationship & change your point of viewing the Relationship? Are you willing to claim your Power of who you are just for Your Self?

Reflection for a Week: Quietening yourself at a specific time of the day for about 20 min.

"Take a Deep breath & focus your attention on any object that is Natural - plant, flower, tree, sky. observe how it is Flexible & Changing in Structure. Affirm to yourself - I belong to the Earth and I am Safe here. I claim my Power back in past relationships as I deserve  Harmony & Love in my body & Environment. With every breath I am more myself, comfortable & new. I am grateful to my Body being with me. I love myself just as I am because I love me."

Notice the different thoughts, sensations & feeling around in your body. Are there any changes in your environment in Life? Keep a Journal. Its Worth it.

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